Single Parents

I have had the experience of being a single parent over the last few days. I have to say that I don't know how people do it. Between taking kids to school making sure homeworks done and running them to practice I don't know how single parents do it. I have been watching three kids (a 4th, 7th, and 8th grader) since Friday because their mom is in the hospital. It has been crazy but fun all at the same time. I am glad I have people around me who are supporting me in everything that I am doing but it is hard. I don't see how people do it everyday. I now have a new perspective on single parenting and props go to those who do it everyday!

Letting Go!

This morning I am struggling. I had a fight with one of my friends like a month ago and nothing has been the same since. I have realized that I was being used. It is like the fog from my eyes has been removed and I can see everything in a new light. Ever since our fight we have hung out like once. It was weird. We didn't talk about the fight or anything. We just acted like nothing happened. I was a little mad about that. Then the only time in the past month that she has called me was when she needed something. Last night she called again wanting to stay at my house. I wasn't at home so I told her no. I am tired of letting people walk all over me. It is a weakness of mine. I tend to just say yes to people even when I know that I probably shouldn't. I have learned through this fight that I have to start saying no more often. It is hard for me but I think in the long run it will be a good thing. I saw this friend again this morning. I was trying to distance myself from her and I was in a hurry. She sent me a text telling me that it was real nice of me not to stay hi to her. I waved when she yelled my name. I just didn't feel like dealing with the whole issue this morning. I want to move on with my life.
I am starting to feel like I don't have time for these type of people in my life. All my life I have had friends who needed me and to be honest I am tired of being needed all the time. I want to focus on me for a change and get my life where I want it. I feel like over the last year I have done a ton of changing and it has been a good thing. I can see myself growing through everything that I go through. It is pretty amazing! It still hurts to lose a friend but to be honest maybe it is time I just let it go! So my prayer this morning is that I find the strength to let it go and move on to bigger and better things.

My thin place.

Ok for those who don't know what a thin place is it is someplace where heaven seems to come down and touch Earth. For me it is south Texas. A few weeks ago I spent two weekends there. It was amazing! I love nature and down South I just feel Gods presence so strong. It is Amazing! One weekend I went to the ranch where my grandparents used to live. I have missed it so much. I thought it would be kind of hard to go back there since they no longer lived there. Surprisingly it wasn't that hard at all. I actually had a ton of fun and after we left I felt like a weight had been lifted off my shoulders. Like I had been carrying around some hurt feelings from when my grandparents moved. It was extremely hard for me to watch them move. I loved the people and the county down there. It was hard to go back the first few times but slowly it has gotten better. It just took some time to readjust. I am glad that my moms mom lives down in south Texas and I have some where to go when I want to visit. I think that I will always have a place in my heart for South Texas. Here are some pictures that I took.

I love all the hills.














Deer are EVERYWHERE!! This was taken from the side of the road.














The river! The clouds in this picture are AMAZING!














This is my favorite pool! I LOVE IT!! I swam here every year for as long as I can remember and I was so thankful to be able to go back this summer!







This is my brother doing a belly flop. It was AWESOME! Look how high off the water he is. I love this picture because it is so amazing!




















So this is my special thin place. I hope to blog more in the near future. We shall see how that goes.

Peace

Wed night I went out to my parents house and I sat out side in their hammock. It was AMAZING! I laid out and looked at the stars. Everything is just so peaceful out there. I plugged in the pond fountain and listened to that too. It was amazing. Here are some pictures of what it looks like in the day time.

The view just outside my parents house.














I LOVE this view. Here is the hammock that I lay in and the view you get to look at while you lay there.































Here is the swing on the back porch and Copper. He is a cool dog but he is not my dog.















Here is the view from the swing. The hammock is just to the right of the swing.














The pond next to the hammock. It is a very peaceful sound!














And last but not least my Baby. Her name is Silver. She is defiantly my dog. She is AMAZING! She is one of the reasons I go out to my parents house!