Friday, January 02, 2009

Silver (the best dog ever) and resolutions for 2009!

Silver was my dog that I have had for the last 10 years of my life. I had to put her down on the 29th of December. On the 23rd we found out that she most likely had liver cancer. You can treat liver cancer but it is really hard on your dog so we thought instead of watching her suffer some more we would just put her down. I think it was the best decision but it sure was a hard one. I tried to be strong but there is nothing that will prepare you for that. I know that with time I will get over the loss of Silver but for now I still miss her and thinking about her brings me to tears. She was a dog that would sit and swing with you. She had to lay right next to you if you let her in to sleep with you. She always behaved. When she rode in the car with me she would just sit in the front seat and look out the window. If she was bothering you all you had to do was say go and she would leave. The times I brought her to my house in town I could let her outside to go to the bathroom without worrying about her running off. She didn't leave the front yard. She would wake you up in the middle of the night if she had to go to the bathroom so she wouldn't go in the house. She was just a great dog. Here is a picture of her....

This picture was taken at my parents house in one of the last few days she was alive. She will be greatly missed!

OK now for my New Years Resolutions....

1) Spend more time with family. I want to go visit family members more often. I tend to say I am busy during the school year and only go on holidays and occasional weekends but I think I could do more than that. So I want to try.

2)Find some good friends. I want to find some friends that are my age that help build me up spiritually. I mean I have some friends but not a whole lot. I want to find a friend that isn't going to need me for something and that I can have a relationship with that goes both ways.

3)Spend more time in the word. I am not that great with getting out my Bible and reading it daily. I should do this more often. I need to spend time in the word everyday. I want to work on this in 2009

4)Spend more time praying/talking to God. I want to talk to God more than I do now. I have noticed that I tend to only talk to him when I am bored or when I need him. I want to work on this relationship.

5)Go to God first with my problems. I also tend to talk to other people about my problems and then talk to God about them. I want to change this and talk to God first.

6)Listen to God more. I do listen some to God but I want to listen more. I feel it is very important to listen to what God wants me to do with my life.

7)Find a place that helps me grow spiritually. I want to find somewhere that I can grow spiritually. Most people find this at church but I don't feel like I am growing at my church. So I want to find somewhere that challenges me and gets me out of my comfort zone and causes me to grow.

8)Speak up more. I tend to just sit back and see the problem but not talk to the right people about fixing it. I want to have courage to talk to the right people and get some things done. Also I want to not keep my mouth shut when I should say something.

9)Get out of my comfort zone. I want to step out of my comfort zone and grow some more in what God wants me to be. I want to step into situations that are uncomfortable to me now so that I can make them apart of my comfort zone.

10)Eat better and exercise more. I need to work on my eating habits and I need to exercise more often.

11)Bring up my GPA I don't think my GPA could be much lower. I need to focus and get it up!

12)Travel I want to see the world. I want to go to Canada, Israel, Africa, and some other countries.

13)learn more about myself. I think over the past year I have learned more about myself and I have seen my heart more. I have grown a lot but I want to keep growing.

14)Build stronger relationships with the people in my life now. I want to get to know the amazing people in my life now better in this next year.

15)Save more money. This I am not very good at. I tend to spend my money on other people which isn't really a bad thing but I don't really save much. I want to work on this in 2009.

Well I have a lot that I want to work on but I think I can do it. I have a whole year to do it in and there is no time like the present to start making changes. I think that this year is going to be an even bigger year for me to GROW and I can't wait to see what God does in 2009!