Driving

I drive like all the time. I pretty much live in my car. There are things I like to do while driving like listen to music, think, and talk on the phone. Well this morning I was driving and thinking and I thought about a few weeks ago when I pulled up to a homeless man his sign read "Hungry anything will help." But as I pulled up he flipped his sign to say "Hungry and Homeless please help. God Bless." I thought that was interesting until I remembered that I have a cross hanging from my review mirror. Then I thought about how that cross is a symbol and it reminds me that I am a Christian. Then I thought about how that cross shows everyone else that I am a Christian. Then I thought about all the times I have been in a hurry or not so nice as I was driving. I thought about how that is not giving a very good example to those around me. It has made me think that I need to remember that I never know who is watching me and who might think bad of not only me but every other Christian if I am doing something that I shouldn't be doing. I need to remember to always look to God and try my best to be a great example to those around me.

My week in a nut shell

This week has been awesome. I have had so much fun and it has been pretty stress free.

Sunday- I went to walkers with Josh and we just sat in the car and talked afterwards. I love doing that and I don't get to just sit and talk very often my life is kind of crazy sometimes.

Monday- I went to work and school. Then I went to soaking. I love going to soaking it is so much fun. Plus it is a time to just be with God. Love that!

Tuesday- Went to work and school. Then I went to see Bedtime stories at the dollar movie. Man I love the dollar movies. It is awesome! Plus I had fun hanging out. Then I went to Starbucks and sat and talked with Brittani. That was fun too.

Wednesday- WOW this was a pampering day for me. I went to work, chapel got my nails done went to get a message and then went to class and church. It was just a fun and relaxing day! I also realized on Wed how much my life had been pretty stress free and I was kind of acting like a college kid for once! AWESOME!

Thursday- School, work and then out to Buffalo Wild Wings with friends. FUN!! Then I came home had a margarita and watched some tv. AWESOME!

Friday- Work work work all day long punched that clock dusk til dawn. OK well not all day I did take a nap and I went to a baseball game came home and got some new music!! :)

Saturday- Went to babysit, to a soccer game, then plans got changed like a million times and I ended up going to a movie then studying some. AWESOME! 

I am really just enjoying life. I am working on being positive and loving the person that I am. I am also trying to not be so hard on myself. Lets hope next week is even better than this week. Well it will be because Family Retreat is next weekend! OH how I love that. I LOVE SOUTH TEXAS!!!

Birds!

Wow it has been a long week. For the most part it was a great weekend. Today I went to a soccer game to watch Allie play and it was as always f-u-n FUN! Then I thought about going to a movie but I ended up going on a walk. I went to Jacobs Dream and that was all great until this family with 6 kids showed up to take pictures and I was in almost every picture they were taking so I left. 

Then I went over by the pond and just laid there and relaxed and just existed. It was awesome. The cool thing was I was laying there with my ipod in and just listening and watching. To my right there were birds looking up. I am not sure at what but they were just looking up. I started to think that is what I need to do right now. I just need to look towards God. Then another bird flew over and started to get a drink. Then he just got in the water and it was like he couldn't get enough of it. Then I thought this is how I should feel about God. I should feel like I can't get enough of him and constantly want more of him. Then more birds flew over and joined in all the fun. All of this is going on and cars are just passing by. It just reminded me of everyday life. The stuff will always be there and as long as you are focused on God the stuff seems like less of an issue. I love that. Here is a picture of my bird friends! Enjoy and remember to turn your eyes

 towards God.

It is hard to tell but all the little black dots are birds. Some are in the water and some are on the shore.

Thoughts....

There is so much going through my head right now....

I have been having a hard time with the whole self image thing. I have for the longest time thought "I don't care what I look like because I am not trying to impress anyone and if they don't like me for who I am than they can deal with it." Well that is all fine and dandy but lately I have started thinking a lot about my future and marriage. I want to meet someone and graduate and live happy ever after. Well with that comes the lies Satan feeds you. Since I started thinking about marriage and my future Satan has started telling me that I am not good enough and that because I am not skinny no one will want to date me. I have been telling myself that it isn't true and that I am loved and that God is the only opinion that matters but Satan is speaking a whole lot louder. It is hard to try to fight him off. I am working on it though.

Then there is this whole negativity thing I have going on. I tend to be negative most of the time. I am working on it but it is something that is going to take more time. I am just having to work on it slowly but right now I feel like Satan has a hold of me this way too.

I just want to be FREE! Free from all of this that Satan has a hold of. Free from all the drama in my life that seems to overwhelm me and take me over.

Then tonight was probably one of the hardest nights of my life. I had to chose to do what was right even though I think I might have made someone I care about mad at me. I just didn't know what to do and I think I did the right thing. This is where the drama comes in. I just want to be free from it all. I am choosing to let it go and let God work through this situation.

LET GO AND LET GOD! I just have to keep telling myself that. No matter what Satan is telling me, no matter what people are telling me, no matter what happens I can't change the past and I must remember to let it go and let God work in it all.