BOYS!!!

Ok I don’t know who is all still reading this but I mostly am writing just to put my feelings out there and to get them off my chest.

So lately I have been feeling this HUGE pressure to find a guy and move on with my life and get married and have kids and live happily ever after. Well I have not had the best of luck in this area but you gotta try right?!?! Well I have been feeling this pressure from the world, after all it feels as if everyone I know is getting married lately or having babies or both. I want to have a family of my own so badly. I have been praying that if I am supposed to stay single that God would take the desire away and that I would be at peace with my life. I feel that the more I pray that prayer the stronger the desire becomes. So I am guessing that one day I will get married and have a family I just don’t know when. I am not so great at the whole waiting for things to happen. Ok I’m not good at waiting at all. I really stink at it. I get frustrated and I want to just take things into my own hands but I know that God has something planned for me and it is all in his timing. I mean after all I never would have thought I would be where I am today. I went through some stuff in High School and after a long healing process I am finally ok with boys being around me and I long for that relationship but not with just any boy. My standards are set REALLY high and I value myself a lot so not every boy I run into on the street fits into my standards. So for now I will just wait and hope and pray that one day God will bring the right guy along that I am supposed to be with for the rest of my life and we can live happily ever after. But the waiting and longing is so not fun!