Deer

Here are the pictures of me with deer. :)) My grandmother would take in deer that their mothers would reject because they couldn't take care of them.

Then here are some from not too long ago. Someone tamed a deer and he showed up in our front yard. He was really friendly and he gave our dogs a hard time. It was funny.

Pets

So I have always loved Animals!! I am at my parents house tonight becuase I am giving my dog a bath and taking her to my house for the week. I have really missed her. Right now she isn't too happy that she is in the bathroom still damp because I forgot my blow dryer but good things are to come. :)) I am not sure how she will get along with my cat but I guess we will find out. Here are a few pics to enjoy.

This one is the earliest one that I have with me and an animal. My mom thinks that I am three. I would sure hate to be that goat. :) This is at my grandmothers house.

This is the first goat that we got when we moved to the country.

More goats

These are some babies to the ones above.

Then came the donkey that we found and then it ran away but that is a story for another time.

Then during the goat and donkey times came the show pigs. I really do love pigs!! This was one of my sr pictures. I love this picture. There are two pigs here. These were my sr year pigs.

Last but not least my dog!! :)) I couldn't find a good picture of her so I will have to take one. I have had her since I was in the 5th grade so almost 9 years. CRAZY!! She is the one on the right. Her name is Silver. The other dog in this picture is Cooper. He is more like my brothers dog.

Well I guess that is all for now. I will try to post one with the deer pictures. I totally forgot about he whole deer pictures. My parents actually have one of me butt naked playing with deer at my grandparets. Really what where they thinking?? I think it was this will be great black mail!!

A Call To Die.

I started this Bible Study with a friend of mine. The book is called A Call To Die. It challenges you to give something up for the 40 days that you are doing the Bible study. So I gave up my cell phone. Now in todays world it is hard for a college aged person to not have a cell phone. They are everywhere. Just stay in one spot and watch. I bet you at least every other person that passes you will be on the phone or doing something with their phone. To be quite honest they probably won't even realize that you are standing there.

I think in todays world we are becoming so technological that it is hard for us to have real relationships. I am one who loves spending time with people. I have fun just sitting and talking for hours. Are we missing something from not being personal with each other? I think that the answer is yes. You can't tell what someone is really thinking over the phone. You can't see the way they are acting like by their body language. If you were to go to a foreign country 80% of what you did to try to talk to people would be by your body language (a smile a hug a handshake).

Don't get me wrong I love talking on the phone. It is well was something that I did all the time. That is why I gave it up. Since I have done this I have realized how we are starting to do less listening and more talking. If we never listen then how are we to hear God? I think that this is something that I was having a problem with. Since I started this Bible Study I have listened more to God and he keeps telling me that I am never alone. It has been a constant theme over the past few days. God often speaks though me in songs. My favorite song at the moment is a song by Mainstay called Hang on. It is amazing. You should take the time to listen to it. I tried to find it on youtube but I didn't have much luck.

Another song I love by them is called Your Not Alone. I did find this one on youtube and I think it is an amazing way to do a song so take the time to watch this video.




Anyway I am going to try to keep things posted on here of what is happening with my life and how I am being changed. I hope you have a blessed day and I will be writing soon.

life

Well I haven't blogged in awhile. I have been really busy. I was leaving church this morning and I started thinking about how church is supposed to be the one place you can come and be yourself and still be accepted but it has turned into a place where everyone comes on Sunday mornings and Wed nights and they put on a smile and act as if everything is just find and dandy. Well most days it isn't. No one is perfect and everyone has problems. Even the people you think have it all together. I have been asked by several people this week if I am happy and I keep telling people that I am happy and that I am just stressed but I think that they truth in the situation is no I am not happy. I am feeling distanced from God and not really sure how to find him. I have been looking and still don't feel him. I know he is with me but I am in a low point and it is starting to get frustrating. I long to be close to him. I am starting a Bible study and working on surrounding myself with Christians and finding an accountability partner so my hope is that all of this will help me in the long run. I guess my challenge to you is to not be fake with people. Be real with them. Tell people what is really going on in life. I know that is hard but it is something that if we all did I think the world would be a much better place!

Thoughts on choosing our feelings

I was in philosophy today and I think it changed my thinking on a lot of things. We talked about free will and Jean-Paul Sartre. Sartre's view is that we never take responsibility for our actions like we should. We all have excuses and we don't just say that we choose to do something else instead. Like saying I choose to go to the movies instead of writhing that paper do doing that homework so that is why I don't have it but then isn't that an excuse in itself. I am not sure. I do think that we should take responsibility for our actions. I wonder how different would our world be if we all did this.
We also talked about how we choose out own emotions. We choose to be happy, sad, depressed. I am not sure what I think about this. I do think tit is right to some extent but I think that some emotions are brought on by circumstances. Like if something emotionally happens to you it makes you feel a certain way. Like if someone you are close to dies you are more than likely going to feel sad about that. This is where I am not sure if you choose that feeling. If you are sad because of something that happened to you then how can that be something that you choose.
I have thought quite a bit about this and I was thinking about feeling Gods absents. If we are feeling like Go d isn't with us then is that something that we are choosing. According to Sartre it would be something that we are feeling but I don't believe that. I do believe that we choose our feelings to some extent but we don't totally choose our feelings. When things happen to use it causes us to feel a certain way. I do think that we can choose to change how we feel when we are in those situations but for the most part that feeling is brought on by things out of our control.

Thoughts lately

I have been questioning everything lately. I think I have been asking too many questions or perhaps not the right questions. I am questioning my faith and if I believe in God or not. I know that sounds awful but that is how I am feeling. I feel lost and alone. I kind of feel like I am in a desert and it is dark outside and there is no light at all. Not even a moon or star to give off some light. I don’t know why I am feeling this or if it is something that everyone goes through but I do know that I hate it. I hate feeling like I am alone and far away from everything. I hate feeling like God isn’t there. I know he is but I just don’t feel it and as soon as I get close to him something else comes along to distract me and get me off track or as soon as I start to feel happy and unstressed something happens and someone needs my help with something. I don’t get why this is happening and I wish it would all just go away. I want to be close to God and I want to see him in everything I do but here lately that hasn’t been the case. I have seen him some but I want more. Is that natural for us to want more? I was telling someone about how I felt like I was in the desert and they told me that it isn’t a bad place to be. Jesus was in the desert for 40 days. That person also told me not to give in to temptations and it got me thinking about the last few months. I have given in to temptations and the feeling when I realized this was awful. I hate it. I feel like I need to get away from everything for awhile but I know that wont solve the problem. Then I think that this time of feeling all alone can only make me stronger and it will help me in the long run and I just don’t see the light at the end of the tunnel yet. I am hoping that this light comes sooner than later.

School

I have started school once again. This year was very weird. I am not sure how I feel about public School starting at the same time that college starts. It was a little weird. Like buying school supplies was INSANE. Not only did you have the college kids trying to buy stuff but you added all the parents and their children. It was a little crazy. I am however loving my classes.

I am finding out that I have very little to no time to do other things outside of class and work and sleep but I will get used to that and I think it is something that will be good for me. My goal for this semester was to try to focus on school and to get better grades. I have a really hard schedule this semester and to some I seem crazy but I think it will be fun.

I have started getting up at 5:30 in the morning to walk and then come back and go to school. Today I didn't get up and walk though. I was so tired from yesterday and I thought it would be nice to sleep in. It was plus I have shin splints. I hate shin splints. They hurt. Anyway I should go. I have go get to work. I hope you all have a wonderful day!
Love,
Heather

Things on my mind

I have been doing a lot of thinking recently. I think it is because readjusting to life after camp is really hard. Just tonight I have been thinking about my life and how I feel so close to God but yet so far away. I know that my relationship with him isn't where it should be right now. I want to get to know him better and become more like him. I feel like this past week I have lost sight of that. I think that part of that is because I haven't been feeling 100% but that is also an excuse. No matter what God should always come first in my life and I feel like this week he has been put on the back burner. I was reading tonight out of my latest book, Just Like Jesus by Max Lucado the teen addition, and I realized that I was putting God in the back of my life. This is something that I think I realized at camp but it is so much harder to actually try to change when you are surrounded by the world and everything it has to offer. I often wonder what would happen if I didn't have the internet, television, and a phone. Would life be easier? Would it leave more time for God? I think that sometimes we tend to put those things before him. This is something that I am struggling with right now and it is something that I am going to try to work on with this next week. I am going to give up an hour of sleep in the morning to read in his word and talk to him. I think that this will help me and my day will be a better day because I start it with him.

Something else I realized tonight is that I am shutting myself off from my friends. I was invited to go hang out with some of them tonight and I turned them down. I am not sure why. I should have gone because it would have been fun and then I wouldn't have been bored all night. I don't know why I do this but every once in awhile I catch myself shutting people out. It isn't good. I also have realized that I want a friend who is always there for me no matter what and who will help me be accountable to what I want to accomplish. I still haven't found that friend. That is my prayer for this year, that I find someone to build me up and hold me accountable to my goals.

Something else that I realized is that I need to be more open with God and tell him everything that I am feeling and this isn't happening well at least not right now. I am not talking to him like he is my best friend. I am also wondering if he is the person I am longing for to be my accountability partner. I am not sure what this year will bring but I am looking forward to it and I am looking forward to finding out more about myself and about my Savior. I can't wait!

CAMP

What can I say about camp?? I am not sure how to explain what I happened to me this summer. It was amazing. I learned a ton about who I was and who I am. I learned that I tend to put others before myself, which is something that I need to watch because it can become a problem. I also learned that I need to find someone to help keep me accountable to everything in my life. I need a friend that I can always count on and that I can go to whenever I need something.

Something else I learned is how a guy should treat a girl when they are dating. I think my standards which were already high just went up some more.

Something else that I have decided is that I want to branch out and switch churches. It is not because I am mad it is just something that I feel lead to do. It is something that I think will be hard because I know that I love my church right now but I feel like I am being called to leave. I am not sure where I am going to go but I know that where ever I go I can always come home. No matter what I know that my church family will always love me. I am sad that I am leaving some of the people but I feel like it will give me a chance to see how other churches work and what their ministries look like. I think it will be a great experience, one that I am looking forward too.

That is a brief description of what I learned at camp. I think I found out who I was and found some of my weaknesses. It was a great 5 weeks and an awesome way to end the summer. I hope everyone had a great summer!

Love,

Heather

CAMP

hey friends!! I am having a blast at camp. I work with High School girl drill teams. It is a ton of fun. We play team building games with them. It is so much fun. There have been some amazing groups. I have loved it. I get to work the ropes course. That is a ton of fun as long as it isn't raining. Well I should go it is getting late and I have a ton of stuff to do. I hope everyone has a great summer!
Love,
Heather

Hero

I have been listening to Superchick a lot lately and one of there songs called Hero is one of my favorites right now. Here are the lyrics.

No one sits with him, he doesn't fit in
But we feel like we do when we make fun of him
Cause you want to belong do you go along?
Cause his pain is the price paid for you to belong
It's not like you hate him or want him to die
But maybe he goes home and thinks suicide
Or he comes back to school with a gun at his side
Any kindness from you might have saved his life

Tag:
Heroes are made when you make a choice

Chorus:
You could be a hero
Heroes do what's right
You could be a hero
You might save a life
You could be a hero, You could join the fight
For what's right for what's right for what's right

Verse:
No one talks to her, she feels so alone
She's in too much pain to survive on her own
The hurt she can't handle overflows to a knife
She writes on her arm, wants to give up her life
Each day she goes on is a day that she's brave,
Fighting the lie that giving up is the way,
Each moment of courage her own life she saves
When she throws the pills out a hero is made

Tag
Chorus

Verse:
No one talks to him about how he lives
He thinks that the choices he makes are just his
Doesn't know he's a leader with the way he behaves
And others will follow the choices he's made
He lives on the edge, he's old enough to decide
His brother who wants to be him is just nine
He can do what he wants because it's his right
The choices he makes change a nine year old's life

Tag
Chorus

Little Mikey D. was the one in class who everyday got brutally harassed
This went on for years until he decided that never again would he shed another tear
So he walked through the door, grabbed the four-four out of his father's dresser drawer
And said I can't take life no more
And like that life can be lost
But this ain't even about that
All of us just sat back and watched it happen
Thinkin' it's not my responsibility to solve a problem that isn't about me
This is our problem
This is just one of the daily scenarios which we choose to close our eyes
Instead of doing the right thing
If we make a choice and be the voice for those who won't speak up for themselves
How many lives would be saved, changed, rearranged
Now it's our time to pick a side
So don't keep walkin' by
Not wantin' to intervene
Cause you wanna exist and never be seen
So let's wake up and change the world
Our time is now

Chorus:
You could be a hero
Heroes do what's right (our time is now)
You could be a hero
You might save a life (our time is now)
You could be a hero, (our time is now) You could join the fight

I like this song because it has a lot to do with what goes on today. The verse in blue made me think today. I was on my way home and was listening to it when I realized how true that verse is. I had an older friend that I looked up too and then she messed up and ended up going down the wrong path. It made me not want to look up to her anymore. Then I started thinking about how many kids look up to me and how crazy it is that I could influence them.

heyhey

Well summer is here!! I have had a blast so far!! I am working at a camp for half the summer. It is a christian camp. It is so much fun. I love working with christian people. It is so much fun. I can't wait to see what God is going to use me for this summer and how I will be changed and grow closer to God this summer. I think that this summer will be challenging and fun. I can't wait to see it all unfold. I can't wait until the summer is over but I know that I won't want to leave camp at the end of this summer. Camp is like its own little world where you never have to worry about anything and God is the center of every ones life. It is so great. A part of me wishes that the real world was more like that. It would be so great. Well I can't wait to go back to go back to camp and this wonderful small world. I hope everyone has a great summer and I will let you know how mine is.

The past few weeks!

The past few weeks have been super crazy!! I have moved out of the dorm and finished my first year of college!! I am having a hard time believing that I am done with my first year of school. It was an amazing year tough but good and I liked it a lot. I am looking forward to this summer. I am working at a summer camp and that will be super exciting. I am working with High School Girls. That will be the not so fun part. I am hoping that it is a good time of growing for me. I am going to not worry about the Internet or my phone or the time for a whole month. I am going to just live and just be for a while. It will be so great. I was supposed to go to England next semester but that ended up not working out. I was sad at first but then I started thinking about all the things I was going to miss like my brothers Sr year of football or all my friends and family. I think that I will have more fun staying here this next semester. Well I should go it is getting late and I have a ton of stuff to do.

life

I kind of quit blogging because I don't really have much to say. I am kind of all over the place right now!! I am guessing that part of it is because I am stressed and I have to pack my whole dorm room up with in the next two weeks. I think it will be a hectic two weeks.

God is Amazing!

My life has been kind of hectic over the past month, as you might be able to tell from my blog if you read it. Last night I was at church and a lady camp up to me and my mom. I have known and talked to her for a long time. I told my mom good bye and the lady stopped me and said that I wasn’t leaving until she prayed over me. She had no idea what I have gone through in the past month but she prayed a prayer of protection over me and my family. How amazing is that?? God is so good. I thought it was awesome!

Saturdays

Saturday... I just realized that I never do the same thing on Saturday. I am always doing something diffrent. Today I am at my grandmas last week I was here and the week before I was at the family retreat. This next week I am helping with a rabies clinic and then the next week I have class. In my lifetime wellness class she wants us to document a typical Saturday. I think that will be hard for me. I think I will just do this Saturday and tell her that I don't have a typical I feel like there is sooooo much to do and not enough time to do it. I have spent my day working on all of this homework. Why is the end of the year so stressful.

Life

This song is something that I think that is what I am feeling right now. It is a really good song. I find myself singing it a lot. I really like it. I think it goes with everything that is going on with my life. It makes me remember that no matter what happens I can make it through. Just thought I would share it with everyone.

Martina McBride
Do It Anyway

You can spend your whole life building something from nothing
One storm can come and blow it all away
Build it anyway
You can chase a dream that seems so out of reach and you know it might not ever come your way
Dream it anyway

Chorus:
God is great, but sometimes life ain’t good
And when I pray it doesn’t always turn out like I think it should
But I do it anyway, I do it anyway

This world’s gone crazy and it’s hard to believe that tomorrow will be better than today
Believe it anyway
You can love someone with all your heart, for all the right reasons, and in a moment they can choose to walk away
Love ‘em anyway

Repeat Chorus

You can pour your soul out singing a song you believe in that tomorrow they’ll forget you ever sang
Sing it anyway, sing it anyway

I sing, I dream, I love, anyway

What a week!!

Well it is only Wed and I am hoping things get better. I went to my great grandmothers funeral on Monday and that was good. My grandpa made it through very well. His bed sores didn't even get worse. It was good to see all the family that we saw at Christmas. I don't know them that well but it was good to see them. Then we came back about 9 on Monday night. I watched some TV and then went to sleep at my parents house. Then Tuesday I came back to the dorm and found out that my Great Uncle had died. Other side of the family. My moms moms brother. The funeral is on Friday in Houston and we are not going. I am going down south instead to work on my grandma computer. She needs some stuff uploaded and it needs to be worked on. She won't be there but it will give me a chance to get some work done and have a quite time at her house. I am just hoping and praying that this was the end of the bad and that the good will start to happen. I always hate it when bad things happen. It stresses me out. School is winding down and when it is over I will have time to relax and have some fun this summer before I go to England for a semester.

What a long week!

Last weekend I got to see this...










































And I had fun with some really cool people!















It was a time to relax and have fun. It was a really fun retreat.

Then I came back to reality. That was not so much fun. School is rough towards the end of the year. I had an ok week until about Wed. I was super pumped because I was going to the Jeremy Camp concert. I got there and ended up having a wreck in the parking lot. It was not good. I am not sure whose fault it was. That was number two in a week and a half. Not good at all. I was still in a rental from my first wreck that wasn't my fault. Then I went to bed that night and slept really well. I woke up the next morning and went to class. Nothing big happened there. Then when I got back to my dorm room and checked my e-mail I found out that my step great grandmother died. Then I started worrying about my grandpa and how was he going to be able to go. Was he going to be able to go at all. Over Christmas we had seen my great grandma and after we left there we drove 10 hours to get to my grandparents house. All that driving was not good for my grandpa (since he is paralyzed and has to sit all the time anyway) and he ended up getting bed sores. He still has them so him coming could make them worse but he wants to come. I think he needs to come. So pray that things get better on my end. I kind of feel like Satan is trying to get to me for some reason. It is not good.

The Good news:
I found out last Friday that I will be spending part of my summer at a camp working with High School Drill Teams. That should be fun. They called again today just to talk to me about it. I am really excited. I think the Lord will open my eyes and let me be a good example to the girls that come through the camp this summer.

Friends, car wreck and everything else

So this week has been very interesting. It started out ok but it went down hill from there. One of my friends got mad at me on Friday night over something stupid and still wont let it go. It makes me so mad. Then yesterday I got into a minor car wreck. I was leaving my dorm for dinner and someone ran a stop sign and hit the back drivers side of my car. Then my car hit the curb on the other side and I ended up hitting my head on the door causing a bump. My car wheels were both bent and it had to be towed. I didn't get a rental till today. I ended up going to the ER to have them look at my head. That was a cool experience. I got to get x-rays and a cat scan. I have a brain for anyone who was wondering. I also found out that nothing was wrong with me. That was good. I spent most of the day sleeping and resting. I am good now and hoping that the week goes up hill from here!

The Petting Zoo

Today I got to help with the Carnival at church. My job was the petting zoo. I got to feed a llama with my mouth. It was pretty cool. I had a ton of fun but I got a little bit of a sun burn. That part wasn't so much fun. Here are a few pictures.















Me feeding the llama

















A random picture of the animals. There was also a bunny and a chicken which I got to hold. I also held a goat for part of the time I was there. It was really cool.

Family Retreats

I woke up this morning and I couldn't sleep. I started to think about what all I had to do today. I have to go to church and help my parents sign people up for our Family Retreat. Twice a year my family organizes a retreat for the church family in south Texas. I love it. I love the area and I love being down there. We have gone on family retreats for the last like 12 years and I don't think that I have missed one yet. I will miss the one after this one because I will be in England. I hate to miss one but I think I will have a ton of fun in England. I think my favorite part of the family retreat is that my family does it together and we go down early to set things up and we come back later than everyone else. It is always a blast to have a few hours alone at the camp. You get to enjoy the peace and quiet before the kids get there and then the camp is filled with laughter and community. I am not sure which one I enjoy better.

A Petting Zoo/Day Care

I spent almost the whole day with my mom and I thought wouldn't it be cool to run a petting zoo. Then my mom said I could take my animals to birthday parties and stuff. Then I thought how cool would it be to have a day care that had a petting zoo. The kids that wanted to would be able to play with animals and learn how to react to them and not be scared and then I thought that if they were bad they could help clean the animals. They could also learn responsibility by helping feed the animals every day. How cool would that be? I think that I would have fun doing that and that as a kid I would love to go to a daycare where I got to see animals of all kinds everyday.

Allergist

Yesterday I went to the allergist and I found out that I am allergic to every grass and weed and I am also allergic to oak and cedar trees. The good thing was that I am not allergic to animals. I would hate to find out that I was. I think even if I was I would still go play with them. I LOVE animals. The sad thing about being allergic to all that stuff is it is all outside. So when I go outside I have to be careful because the doctor said that on a scale of 1 to 10 with 10 being the highest I am a 10 to grasses, weeds and those two trees. That really stinks. I will still go outside but I just have to be extremely careful. Today I had to go back to the allergist to get an injection. I have to go every week and get them to hopefully help my body become immune to some of my allergies. I also went to Cingular to find out how much it will cost me to make phone calls when I am in England next fall. It will cost me 99 cents a min. That is a lot. I am going to see about getting a phone card or something that will be cheaper. Now I am going to attempt to finish cleaning my room! :) We shall see how well that goes!

Forgiveness/Friendship

Why is it so easy for some people to forgive others and keep there mouth shut when something really does bother them and for others it is so hard? I think I am one that easily forgives and tries to forget but it doesn't always work. I have noticed that I sometimes let people walk all over me. I tend to make a friend and love them no matter how bad they treat me and they could be mean to me and make me hate them but then after a little bit of time I get over it. It is crazy to me how this works. It makes me mad to some extent that I let this happen but then again I know that I am supposed to forgive and forget. So I guess my question should be is there a limit to forgiveness? Is there a point that it turns into someone walking all over you and you not being forgiving?

Spring Break

Well it is Spring Break! I am super excited!! I could use the sleep. But tonight I tried to go to sleep and ended up waking up after about 30 min so here I am writing this blog. I am fixing to clean my room and rearrange it a little. I am going to try to give myself some more room. This could get interesting. Then tomorrow at church I will be extremely tired and my sleeping pattern will become off. This should be an interesting week. On Monday I go to the allergist to find out what I am allergic to. That should be fun and then on wed. I go back to the dentist for more dental work. I hope everyone has a great week!

My week so far

So far I have had a really good week. Well it is only Monday but it has been a good one! I kind of got sick on Sunday. I think it was allergy related. I have had a lot of problems with that these last few weeks. Now I have to go in for an allergy test on next Monday. That should be fun. I am not scared but I think that is because I know it is something that I have to do. I get my new glasses this week. That is somewhat exciting. I was hoping to get back into contacts but that didn't happen because last time I went in and I was wearing my contacts I learned that they were depriving my eyes from oxygen. So I am stuck in glasses till they make contacts that breathe better. I am hoping that is sometime soon but until then I am in contacts. I don't have one of my classes on Wed. That is always a plus. I don't have any classes on Friday but I have to work. At least I get to sleep in. That should be fun. I hope everyone has a good week!
Love,
Heather

an awesome weekend

This weekend was amazing! I went out Friday night with some friends and it was fun I guess. We went to a club. I have never been to a club. We stayed till it closed. It got boring about 30 min into it. I think it would have been more fun if we were all dancing but we weren't. Then we went to IHOP but a few of our friends didn't go. It kind of sucked since we had all planed on going together. Then me and my friend Ashley went to my house and went to sleep and slept till about 2. It was a nice 12 hours of sleep. I have learned that you don't do too much on the weekends during the day because you are catching up on your sleep. Then we woke up and watched TV for like 4 hours and my mom came home and told us that she was going to the Homeplace. I love that place. Me and Ashley went with her. It was so much fun. Then we went to a movie and saw Catch and Release. It was pretty good. Then we came back and went to sleep. Then today was all about church. I did my normal thing. I called my grandpa today and for those who are wondering he is in the hospital right now and they are still trying to find out what is causing him to be sick. I am hoping that they find it soon so he can go home. I am going to see them this weekend and to go to the Zoe Conference. Then I went and walked like I always do. It was fun even though we were short on time and there were 3 of us. I didn't get to talk to one person that I had really wanted to talk to. She wasn't home. Last week when we talked I could tell something wasn't right. I am kind of worried about her. Then I went to University C of C and did some activities with their youth group. One of my classes requires me to do 6 things outside of class and that was one of them. It was quite fun. Then I washed my car and got dinner and now I am fixing to go to bed. I hope everyone has a great weekend!

a interesting day!

So today I wanted to skip class so bad but I didn't. I went like a good little girl and now I am wishing I hadn’t. Anyway we did a scavenger hunt all fun and stuff. We walked all around campus. It was fun until my nose started to run and I started to sneeze. We were almost done though and we were in first place so I was trying to hurry. Then as we were finishing I could tell something was wrong. My fingers we swelling and my hand were as red as my Jim Ned Indians shirt I had on. It was crazy. I went to the restroom and looked at my face and it was swelling as well. It was crazy. Have you ever seen the movie Hitch? If so my face looked like his if not then you have no idea what I am talking about and that is ok too. It was so crazy. I called my dad and he took me to the campus Dr. and I got two shots. Then my mom joined us and laughed at me because it was really funny! So it was an interesting day!!

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I havn't bloged in forever. I feel like I never have time for it. College is so busy all the time. Yesterday I spent an hour or so just sitting and relaxing. It was so nice. I think that it makes the week a little less stressfull when you just sit and relax. Well I don't really have much to say but maybe I will later.

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I have been thinking. Here are a few things I have been thinking about...

Death-> I am not good with dealing with death and I am not sure if it is that I am older and notice it more or if there are more people dying now a days. I never know what to say and I over think what I am going to say. When I grieve I like to take my time and I will eventually come to terms with and talk to someone. I am wondering how this will effect my ability to become a good children's minister.

My life-> These last two weeks have been a roller coaster. Last week we had to move my grandparents. They have lived there since my dad was a Sr. in high school. It was kind of sad and we are going back down there this weekend to get the rest of the stuff. It will be sad but the good thing is that my other grandma lives down there. This week I found out that I got an interview with the Laity Lodge Youth Camp. It is a summer camp for kids. It is in south Texas and if I get the job it would be really cool because I will be able to go visit my grandma on the weekends and I will get to spend my summer swimming in the frio and be in the beautiful hill country and then when I get home I will be going to Oxford England for a semester for study abroad. I am so excited. It will be a ton of fun. I think I will miss home but I will get to see what it is like to be away and when I come back I will be more dependent. Plus I get to see Big Ben and visit all kinds of other places over there like Paris.

Worry-> This is a word that keep coming up in my life. The verse Matthew 6:34 keeps coming up in my mind. "Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." I don't know if it because I had to memorize the whole sermon on the mount or if it was because I struggle with worry. I worry about a lot of little things and then I get worked up about it then I get stressed out so I think that I am going to try to work on not worrying this year and see how it goes. So far I am off to a good start.

That was just some things on my mind. Pray for me this weekend and this next week. My interview is on Wed the 17th and school starts on the 16th.

Thanks,
Heather

Life as of now

This week has been a really good week but yet I am stting here crying. I think that it is mostly because of this last weekend but then I think of what is coming up this weekend. Last weekend was the childrens musical Jolee was mary. I held back my tears because I didn't want the kids to see me cry. Then this weekend I am going to my dads parents house. I have only seen my grandpa in a wheel chair once. I will see him again this weekend and I am going to see his house that I haven't seen since they moved. I am kind of worried about this weekend. I am afarid that I might cry again. Finals are almost over though so that is a plus. I am so excited.

Life

I was looking for a paper that I had written and I came across this one.

The Worst Best Year of my Life

This year has been a very hard year for me. I have gone from having a close friend to not having friends to slowing having a few friends. I have had a lot of set backs and I have found out a lot about myself that I didn’t know.

The year started out great. I had close friends and I had nothing to worry about school was great and I was having fun. I had decided to go on a chrysalis and I never knew how much that could change your life. It was an AWESOME experience. It made my relationship with Christ grow. It also made me look at how other people are treated and how I treat others.

Then a week before my birthday everything started to fall apart. I went rolling with some friends and we rolled a lot of people but we rolled the band director and he wasn’t too happy about it because one of the guys that was with us wrote “Screw You” on his driveway in chocolate syrup. We didn’t know this until we got in the car to drive off. We would have gone back and cleaned it up but we thought we were caught. We knew that he would be mad so we made up a cover story for school the next week. He pulled three other boys in the office on Monday and said that they did it and tried to get them to confess to it. They were taking the wrap for something that we did. Then on Wednesday he finally figured out who actually did it. He wanted to talk to us in his office and he said that he wanted us to clean his drive way. He also said that he was going to call our parents. I was so scared because I knew my parents would be so disappointed in me. I had to call my mom and tell her everything. It was so scary. She wanted me to go to his house and clean his drive way but I didn’t want to go alone. We all got together and we cleaned his driveway and wrote an apology letter.

My friend thought I was the one who told on us. She decided that she didn’t want to be friends anymore and just like that I lost my best friend. The sad thing is that it was three days before my birthday. It was a really low point in my life.

I was slowly starting to recover and make new friends. Then on January 16^th I got a phone call at 5:45 from one of my moms coworkers she wanted to make sure that we were all right. I asked her why and she told me that one of our church vans coming home from Winterfest, a youth conference in Dallas, had rolled and there were serious injuries. I hung up the phone and started crying. I didn’t know details but I knew it would be bad. My mom called the McKnight’s, some people I baby-sit for. Their daughter had gone on the trip. We found out that there were eight people in the car and one of them had died. I wasn’t close to any of them but I knew who they were and I knew some of their family members. I was really upset. This incident turned my life into a living nightmare. It really made me think about how you are only here for a little while before you move on to another place and you never know how long you will be here.

Then about a month later I went to San Antonio to show a pig. On the way we were going to stop at my grandparents, Dads parents, to drop off a trailer to pick up some goats on the way home. We didn’t know how sick my grandpa was but we soon found out he couldn’t walk. My dad decided to take him to Lubbock to the hospital. That left me two hours from my aunt’s house. Where I was supposed to be to show my pig. I had to drive to Borne by myself. It was kind of scary but I didn’t really have a choice. When I got to my aunts house I had to wait on my mom to drive from Abilene to Borne. When she got there we went to the stock show and I got my pig ready for show. The next day I showed my pig. He didn’t do too well but that was ok because my mom needed to leave. Then we went back to my aunt’s house. My mom decided that she should go to her mom’s house because her mom thought she had pneumonia. I stayed the night at my aunt’s house and then went home. On my way home I stopped in Kerrville to see my grandma and my mom. Then I had to go back to my dads parents house and pick up the goats. Then I stopped at Graven Store to get some gas money from my mom. Then I pulled a trailer home, which was four hours. It was kind of scary. I did a lot of traveling by myself that weekend. It gave me an opportunity to think and clear my head.

Not to long after the San Antonio stock show I went to Braham for the Sift before the Houston Stock show. Before I left the McKnight’s oldest daughter Caitlin told me that they were moving to Kansas. I was in shock. I was just getting to know them and they are great people. I was really upset about the news. I couldn’t believe that they were moving and it really didn’t hit me then. I didn’t do as well as I thought I would at the stock show but that was ok. I got to go home and get some rest.

After the Houston Stock show I had tryouts for mascot. It was really fun and I enjoyed being mascot. Tryouts in front of judges didn’t go too well. I felt that I didn’t do a good job. A wise person told me that if it was meant to happen then it would. Then we went in front of student body. It was a blast. I had fun being out there. I didn’t make mascot but that is ok because God has something bigger planed for me.

About a week after Mascot tryouts my youth minister announced that he was moving. I have been babysitting his family for about two years. I felt so sad. I cried all during church. I couldn’t believe what I was hearing. I thought it was a dream. It was total shock that they were moving too.

My grandpa is still sick and can’t walk. The doctors say that he will get better and regain all motion in his legs. My grandpa keeps talking about moving to Lubbock. I can’t imagine them moving. They have lived in the same place my whole life. It is about 30 min from my mom’s mom. So every year when we go down there we get to see both sides of the family. If they move it will be harder on us to see them as often.

I applied to Junior Scholars a program during the month of June that will allow me to have six college hours. I got accepted but I didn’t get a full scholarship and I am not sure if I will be going. I am not sure if that is what I am supposed to do with my summer. I am still undecided but I know in the end everything will turn out the way it is supposed to.

Though all that has happened to me, it has been a great year. I have made new friends and learned a lot about life. I have a new understanding of how important friendships are. I have changed a lot this year. I have thought more about life and what happens after High School. I have realized that we are here only by the grace of God. We are here to glorify him. I may have some rough times but I will make it though this because God will never give me more than I can handle.

I wrote this at the end of my Jr. Year of High School. I have been looking back a lot lately and seeing how much I have changed but I didn't realize until now how much I went through my Jr. and Sr. year. I didn't really have a close friend my Sr. year and if it hadn't been for an awesome teacher I am not sure what would have happened to me. I guess you could say she was my friend because at times it felt like she was my only person I had to talk to at school. I still talk to her but it isn’t the same as it was. My college year started out rocky. I didn’t really have a close friend and the first few weeks were hard. All my friends were in other dorms and they were getting to know people and having fun I kind of felt like I was far away from everyone but now I have two close friends and it is great. It has been a really great year so far. God is challenging me and I am trying to see what he has planed for me but often times it is when you get up on top that you see why. I see that more now looking back on the last two years. I see that I have grown up and matured. I see stuff that goes on that I wouldn’t have noticed before and I am more aware of my surroundings. God works in mysterious ways and it is so awesome when we see it happen with us

Driving

Over the past few weeks I have done a lot of Driving. It has been a great time to think. It is really cool to watch the different formations that the clouds take. I also have passed a few interesting things.






I love this picture. It is so cool.
















This is just a random picture of the road.











I can't even tell you how many of these I have passed.
















This one is one of my Favorites. It looks like someone holding a baby. I love little kids.











Well I am off to do some more driving. I hope you have a great day!

time

Everyday people rush to appointments and jobs and different things they have to do. But in the end does it all really matter? I have been thinking about this lately. We are here on Earth to glorify God. Why do we make things on Earth so important? When you are born you come into the world with nothing and when you leave you go the same way. After all I have never seen a hearse with a luggage rack. When I went to New Orleans I thought about this a lot and then here lately I have been thinking about it some more. When you are little your parents always told you what to do and where to go. You never have an agenda. You don’t have to be any where at a certain time. You just go with the flow. I think that is part of the reason I want to work with children. They don’t have a care in the world and they know what is real. All they want to do is have fun and live life to its fullest. That is what I want to strive to do. I want to enjoy life and not worry about everything all the time. I think children teach us a lot about life and how to live.

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Well so far school is going great. I am having a ton of fun. I have been meaning to post a blog all week but every time I try I get distracted. I started a new job this week and so far it has been really fun. I drive to Brownwood and back every day. On Wed as I was driving I passed a John Deer Tracker. It looked like a high school kid and school had just let out. I think that is what he drove to school. Only in Texas would that happen. Well I better go. I need to get some homework done.

~Heather

I LOVE MY NEW HOME!!

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I am having such a good time in my dorm. My floor is a little quite but the floor above me isn't and I love talking to them. They are loud jsut like me. It is AWEOSME! Thanks to Mike and Diane I have met a lot of people. It is late and I am going to bed. DORM LIFE ROCKS! I LOVE COLLEGE!!!

Love,
Heather

Standing up for what is RIGHT!

Tonight I went to church and I worked with the 1st through 5th graders. We talked about standing up for what is right. I have been thinking about this topic a lot lately. Yesterday I was hanging out with one of my friends and she had her cousin and her cousin boyfriends brother with her and we decided that we were going to go to Wal-mart and then to Buffalo Gap. They all rode with me to Wal-Mart but when we got there they all got out because my friends car was there. They wanted to ride with my friend because she would let them smoke in her car. It made me feel left out but I can't stand to smell like smoke and I think that is it awful. It is a choice that you can make but I choose to not be involved in it. Then my friends cousin wanted to go get drunk and that is when I decided to leave. I don't like being around that sort of stuff. I have never understood why someone would want to poison their body with that kind of stuff. I have also never understood why that would be fun. Standing up for what is right or what you believe in is often hard and as you get older it get so much harder. When you are little it is little things like not watching a movie that you know you shouldn't watch. Then you grow up and you form your own opinions and go by your rules and it gets so much harder to stick to what you believe because what people think starts to become important. It shouldn't matter what they think. They are not the one who really matters. I am not a person who typically cares about what others think but I hate feeling like I am being left out. I like to feel like I belong. Then I think is feeling like you belong really that important. I know that it isn't so why does it hurt so much when you are left out? This is just something that I have been thinking about lately.

Day Care

I have been working at a day care since January 11. I started out working with kids who were just turning three. I didn't realize that I had fallen in love with these kids until this summer. I have been moved due to the fact that a) I took 3 weeks off and b) I have a lot of experience with all age groups of kids. This summer I have worked with about every kid in the day care and I know almost all their parents. Although I may not remember all their names I still like them. This week I am working with the 4 year olds. They have been a ton of fun. Next week I will be working with 1 year olds. It will be a whole new world and I will miss my new friends. The one really good advantage to working this summer is that they are working me 40 hour weeks so the pay is really good. What else would I do?? Either get into trouble or sit around the house doing nothing. Why do that when I can do something productive.

New Orleans

New Orleans was AWESOME and then again it was sad. There were 15 of us that went 4 sponsors and 11 graduated seniors. 4 Guys and 11 Girls. We got our assignment on the day that we arrived. We went to bed early and got up at 6:00a.m. and ate breakfast and went to work. I wasn't prepared for what I saw. I knew that we would be taking everything that the person owned and piling it in the street but what I didn't know was how much it would impact me in the end. The lady who lived in the house that we did was in her 60s and she hadn't been back since she left. She didn't have a husband or any children and she lost her dog due to the storm. She stayed and was going to wait out the storm. It was just a hurricane after all and she thought she would be safe. If the levees hadn't of broke she probly would have been safe. She lived in New Orleans near the airport. She spent the first night on her refrigerator. The next day she ended up wading to the highway with her neighbors. She is deathly scared of water. It was a huge leap of faith. It was neat to hear her story. Our job was to put on these masks so we wouldn't get sick and go into her house and take everything out. Since she waded out she had left everything. It was a 2 bedroom house with a dining room and a living room. She also had a garage full of stuff and a laundry room with a bathroom out there. The whole house sat in about 3 feet of water for a month and then was left with no one touching it since. It was pretty gross. After we got all the funiture and appliances out we then tackled the carpet and then the walls. You tear everything down to the studs. It was pretty amazing how much we got done. It felt as if we were tearing apart her life. We took her house down to the studs and made a huge pile of all her belongings on the street. It also made me realize that all this stuff on earth means NOTHING! It is just stuff and this is just a passing point until we get to the really good stuff. So I started thinking why is all the stuff we have in our houses so important to us? You don't bring anything with you and you can't take anything back.(That made me think of the song You'll Be There by George Strait) The world is so messed up. We make things mean so much when in all reality they mean NOTHING! Anyway New Orleans was a time of growth and it was an eye opening experience.

God is Awesome!

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I went to the dentist today and I was really tied. My mom had said something about me being a world traveler. The lady that took me back had started asking me questions about where I had been and what I have been doing. I was taking to her about my trip to New Orleans. Then my dentist came in and she asked me if I had been on my mission trip because last time I was in the office she asked me what I would be doing for the summer and I had told her I was going on a mission trip. Anyway after I told her she started work. Towards the end she told me that she was going to give me a crown that I needed for one of my other teeth that she had started earlier in the year. I nearly started crying. I was so excited. A crown is about $900. She said that since I was doing good things for others she would do something for me. I have always heard that if you do good things for others that blessings will come back to you doubled. I was just amazed at how it happened. God is so AWESOME! I will post on my trip to New Orleans later.

Love,
Heather

Keep your fork!

Remember to Keep your Fork
There was a young woman who had been diagnosed with a terminal illness and had been given three months to live. So as she was getting her things "in order," she contacted her pastor and had him come to her house to discuss certain aspects of her final wishes. She told him which songs she wanted sung at the service, what scriptures she would like read, and what outfit she wanted to be buried in. Everything was in order and the pastor was preparing to leave when the young woman suddenly remembered something very important to her.
"There's one more thing," she said excitedly. "What's that?" came the pastor's reply. "This is very important," the young woman continued. "I want to be buried with a fork in my right hand."
The pastor stood looking at the young woman, not knowing quite what to say.
"That surprises you, doesn't it?" the young woman asked. "Well, to be honest, I'm puzzled by the request," said the pastor.
The young woman explained. "My grandmother once told me this story, and from there on out, I have always done so. I have also, always tried to pass along its message to those I love and those who are in need of encouragement. In all my years of attending church socials and potluck dinners, I always remember that when the dishes of the main course were being cleared, someone would inevitably lean over and say, "Keep your fork". It was my favorite part because I knew that something better was coming... like velvety chocolate cake or deep-dish apple pie. Something wonderful, and with substance!'
So, I just want people to see me there in that casket with a fork in my hand and I want them to wonder "What's with the fork?". Then I want you to tell them: "Keep your fork ... the best is yet to come."
The pastor's eyes welled up with tears of joy as he hugged the young woman good-bye. He knew this would be one of the last times he would see her before her death. But he also knew that the young woman had a better grasp of heaven than he did. She had a better grasp of what heaven would be like than many people twice her age, with twice as much experience and knowledge. She KNEW that something better was coming.
At the funeral people were walking by the young woman's casket and they saw the pretty dress she was wearing and the fork placed in her right hand. Over and over, the pastor heard the question "What's with the fork?" And over and over he smiled.
During his message, the pastor told the people of the conversation he had with the young woman shortly before she died. He also told them about the fork and about what it symbolized to her. The pastor told the people how he could not stop thinking about the fork and told them that they probably would not be able to stop thinking about it either. He was right.
So the next time you reach down for your fork, let it remind you ever so gently, that the best is yet to come. Friends are a very rare jewel, indeed. They make you smile and encourage you to succeed. They lend an ear, they share a word of praise, and they always want to open their hearts to us. Show your friends how much you care. Remember to always be there for them, even when you need them more. For you never know when it may be their time to "Keep your fork."
Cherish the time you have, and the memories you share... being friends with someone is not an opportunity but a sweet responsibility.
Author Unknown


This morning during class at church we were told this story and It brought tears to my eyes becuase as class was going on my parents were driving to Lubbock to see my grandfather who has been in the hospital for over a month. He can't feel anything from the waist down and he is going to a nursing home sometime this week. Anyway he LOVES this story. So for his birthday my mom framed it and on the frame she put forks. We never know when our last day will be but we do know that better things are to come.

~Heather~

Mexico

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I got back from Mexico a few days ago. It was an awesome trip. Our van was awesome. It was all girls and two drivers that were awesome. Our van liked to sing and we sang alot. That made it fun. We have 4 work days and on the first one we went to a school of preaching and help pore a second floor roof. I had been there two years ago and pored the 1st floor roof. That was fun to see again. We also worked with every other group that was there that day. People from Longview, Colorado, Kansas, & Nebraska. Then the last three work days we worked on a wall that will be around a church. They build the church yet because the road is just a dirt road. Then we also got to go see the site I helped with my freshman year. That was awesome too. It was just 5 bricks high when we left and it is now a 2 story building. I really enjoyed mexico. It is amazing to see how many christian people there are in mexico. They have so little but you wouldn't know it by the way they act. Then on the van ride home about an hour and a half from home we started singing. It turned into more of a devo and it was AWESOME! It was a time where everyone knew that God was present. I had an AWESOME trip. It was a great way to end my 4 years of going to mexico. It will be sad not to go back but I am sure that I will do many more great service acts.
Love,
Heather

Last Day

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Today is my last day of High School. It is very weird to think about. It is something that I have known was going to happen but now that it is here I kind of feel like I am in a dream. It feels like this isn't really happening but I am sure that this feeling will soon leave me and I will be amazed when it does. I am excited about graduation for many reasons. 1 is that I will finally get to go to school with my best friend ever. It really stinks living 30 min out and only seeing some of my friends every once and a while. Another reason is that I can ignore some of this High School drama. I am tired of it. It seems like you can never please anyone and some one is always mad at you. I hope college is better. We shall see!

Love,
Heather

PLEASE PRAY

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I just found out today that my grandpa, Ivan, is doing very badly. He woke up this morning and he couldn't feel his legs. My grandma, Lenga, had to get help getting him in a car and took him to Crosbyton and then he was taken by ambulance to Lubbock. We are waiting a report. He has struggled with Guillain-Barre Syndrome for over a year and Lenga has been his nurse 24/7. She drove him all by herself today. Please pray that the doctors can find out what is going on with him. Last month this happen too and he had a rash on his legs. I just found out that he is in ICU at Lubbock and they are afraid that this Guillain-Barre Syndrome may affect his breathing. THe Dr. won't be in till in the morning so please pray for him and my grandma and the doctors. Thanks so much.

Love,
Heather

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Prom was last weekend and I thought I would post a picture of me all dolled up because it doesn't happen very often. The pictures are taken in my backyard.












This is me close up.













This is how I would rather be dressed and what I would have much rather been doing....












What can I say I LOVE pigs and I am a true country girl! I hope you have a great day!

Love,
Heather

Life at the moment!

Rascal Flatts

Stand

You feel like a candle in a hurricane

Just like a picture with a broken frame

Alone and helpless like you've lost your fight

But you'll be alright, you'll be alright

Chorus

Cause when push comes to shove

You taste what you're made of

You might bend 'til you break Cause it's all you can take

On your knees you look up

Decide you've had enough

You get mad, you get strong

Wipe your hands, shake it off

Then you stand, then you stand

Life's like a novel with the end ripped out

The edge of canyon with only one way down

Take what you're given before it's gone

And start holdin' on, keep holdin' on

Repeat Chorus

Every time you get up and get back in the race

One more small piece of you starts to fall into place -yeah

Repeat Chorus

I Love this song. I think that this is where I am at right now. I feel like I am about to break. Like things just keep getting thrown at me and that I keep having to jump through hoops. I think that part of it is that Satan is trying to get to me. He knows that God is going to use me in AMAZING ways and he can't stand it. I know that in the end I will pull through this and that I will be all right. But for now I am on my knees. Anyway I LOVE this song. I am really fond of Rascle Flatts and this song is on their new CD.

Homosexuality

I was reading Mikes blog this morning and I am too chicken to wright my thoughts on this topic in a comment mostly because so many people read his blog so I will just make my own post.

I started working in a daycare this year. The first day I went there to work I worked with the girl who would be quitting. She was telling me some helpful hints about the kids like which ones were the ones who were always in time out and which ones would be the ones you never got on to. Then she told me that one of them had two moms and to watch out because the child would get mad if you called them both mom. I was shocked. I had never been faced with this issue and at first I didn't know what to think. How do I treat them. I think my first reaction was that is wrong and I don't know if I can be around someone like that. Then I got to know them. If you met them on the street you would never know. They are really nice people. I have decided that I should just treat them like any other person. I don't agree with what they are doing but I don't think it is right for them to be shunned from society. We should treat them like everyday people. I kept telling myself that it is a choice they made. I can't change their decision. I can just show them the love of Christ and treat them right.

Anyway that is how I feel about Homosexuality. I hope you have a blessed day!

Love,
Heather

Family Retreat

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This weekend is our churches semi annual family retreat. My parents are in charge of it and as a family we always go down early and set things up and get ready for everyone to get there. This year however will be a lil different. I am not going down early. It is really weird because I have not ever showed up late. For the past 10 years I have always gone down early. This family retreat will also be the last one that I will go to as a family because next year I will be in college. It is kind of weird. Anyway it will be fun and I know that I will have a blast. I hope you have a great week!

Love,
Heather

Heaven

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Have you ever sat and thought about Heaven? I was on my way home tonight and I thought about how Christ is so compassionate and he loves ALL of us and he cares for us and I started to wonder when we get to Heaven will we remember our love ones we left behind and will we look down on them and watch them live their life. I know that there are only happy tears in Heaven but if you saw something bad happen to someone you left behind would your heart not go out to them and would you not maybe cry with them because they are in pain. I know that God has everything planned out so if you were in Heaven you might be able to see what was going to happen in the end but it still amazes me to think and ponder those things. Just something to think about. I hope you have a great week!

Love,
Heather

pet peeves

I have decided that when it comes to friends I have two pet peeves. One is when you say I will call you back tomorrow DO IT! Don't just say something that you know you won't do. The other one is when it comes to boyfriends and friends your friends come first! I know that it is important to have a boyfriend but your friends will always be there and boyfriends come and go. I am not sure why but it really bugs me when your friend starts dating someone and then they don't call you back and they never have time for you. I hope that I never put a guy before my friends.

Heather

My trip to Houston

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I just got home from Houston. It was a really fun trip. I went to Houston to show a pig. I didn't feel too great the whole time I was there but I still had fun. My mom took me down there and drove me around. We stayed at my uncles house with his new wife and 3 kids. It was fun for me because I love kids and I love being with family. We got there Sunday evening and we went to eat and then we to bed. We went to the stock show early to wash my pig but we found out that I would have to wait until after lunch to wash. We went and slept in the car until lunch and then we went in around 2 to wash. Then I ended up showing around 6:30. My uncle and his wife and 3 kids came to watch along with one of my cousins. It was a blast. Then we went out to eat and then we went back to my uncles house. We headed home on Tuesday morning but we didn't make it far. We stopped to have lunch with another uncle then we went to one of my aunts houses. It was so much fun to see some of my family. Then we headed home. It was a great trip. It was also kind of sad. It was my last stock show ever. It was fun. Anyway I hope you have a great week!

Love,
Heather

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This week has been a hard one but I am slowly getting through it. Tonight was a huge high point. I needed to spend some time with God and I got to tonight. I am also getting back into the babysitting business which I haven't been doing since everyone moved. I am really enjoying it though. It has been hard to get back into it though. It is hard to love and then to watch the people you love leave. A wise person once told me that when you put your heart out there and love someone you pay the price of grief when they are gone. The families that I babysat for are still around they just aren't as close as I would like them to be. It has been hard but I am glad I am getting back out there. I love kids and would do anything for them. That is why I LOVE my job. I look forward to going to work each day. Some days are harder than other but in the long run I love it. It is so amazing to me how when you are having the worst day in the world a child can since it and will come up to you out of the blue and give you the biggest hug in the world. That just amazes me. I think that is why I love children so much. They are so innocent but yet they still know a lot. Anyway my week is starting to look up and I am looking forward to the weekend. I hope everyone is having a great week!

Love,
Heather

San Antonio

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I am in San Antonio. I just got through showing a pig. It was a ton of fun. It was kind of sad though. It was my last time to show in San Antonio. I have one more pig show and then I am done for my life time. It has been a great trip though. A great time to relax. But now it is back to reality. I hope you are having a great week! talk to you later!

Love,
Heather

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This past weekend was AMAZING! I wasn't sure how it was going to be but my parents were out of town and I had a chance to be ALONE. I have been feeling that I need to slow down. Someone is trying to tell me something and I am not listening very well. This past weekend I had a chance to just be and it was good. I went to a friends house Friday night and then sat I went to a UIL meet but I was home by like 4 and then I had some time to myself. I got invited out but I felt like I needed the rest. It is always good to have some rest. This week is busy and this weekend is even busier. I am starting to get used to my new job and I am loving it although some days they can be little brats. Today was one of those days but I also think that they can since when I am tired and they push my buttons. Well I better go. I have a busy day ahead of me. Have a great day!

Love,
Heather

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This month has been a really great month for me. I have changed jobs and I am now working with kids which I love and I look forward to going to work each day. It is funny how things work out. I was really sad to leave Albertsons but then again I wanted to do something that I loved. My last day at Albertsons was the day they got bought out. The people who bought them out say that they aren't going to change anything but I am sure that they change some things. It is funny how God knows what is going to happen and will sometimes take you out of a situation. Any way I am off to a UIL meet. I hope that you have a great day!

Love,
Heather

so far the year has gone great...

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So far 2006 has been great! I started of the year by watching the ball drop then went to bed to get up and go to church and then I started school today. School was ok. It was kind of weird. I graduate in 5 months. That is a lil scary. I am ready to be out on my own but then again I have learned that I am not found of change. I know I am going to enjoy going to College and I know that it will be fun. I just am a lil scared. Other than that I am having a great new year! I hope everyone else had a great new year! TTYL LYL GOD BLESS!

Love,
Heather

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Today was a day of mixed feelings. I found out that I made a 70 on my final for College English and that I ended up passing with a B. That was great because I thought that I was going to fail that final and that ment that I wouldn't graduate. Then this afternoon as I was leaving a guy two cars infront of me slammed on his brakes and I ended up rear ending someone. No one was hurt but I was a lil shaken up. The girl that was behind me said she nearly hit me too. All because one guy decided to be funny and slam on his breaks. Then he sped off. It wasn't very nice. There was no damage to the guy infront of me but my car didn't look so good. I ended up having to tie the hood down so I could drive it back to town. It is now in the shop and we have a rental. The good thing is that I jumped back in the car and wasn't scared to drive it but It was a little scary. I still haven't driven over 60 since it happened. I wonder how long this will last. Tomorrow I get to take my finals and the first semester of my Sr. year will be over. I have mixed emotions about this too. I am excited but then again I am not ready for college yet. It is kind of scary to think of myself out in the real world. I am sure I will have a blast at college but it is still a scary thought. I hope everyone has a great week! TTYL LYL GOD BLESS!!

Love,
Heather

AN AWESOME WEEKEND!

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WOW I couldn't have asked for a better weekend! Friday I hung out with some totally AWESOME friends! We saw Just Friends. It was really funny! Sat was fun too. I didn't do much of anything just kind of sat around and watched TV. I did work a 2 hour shift at a gas fundraiser for Project Graduation. Then today was the icing on the cake. I went to church and then went and ate with some friends. Then I went back to church and helped in the kitchen for a lil bit. It was fun. Then we went on our neighborhood walk. I love our street. The people on our street are slowly making there way into my heart. They are so kind and so loving. Then we went to church and waited for the Christmas pageant to start. One of the families from our street came. We had so much fun! We sat behind this lady who had a baby. She was so cute. I ended up holding her before the pageant was over. I love children. Then I held her while her mom ate supper. It was so much fun. I hung out with lil kids all night. I don't think I will ever grow up! I hope you have a great week! God Bless!

Love,
Heather

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I love spending time with my family! The laughter never ends. This year it has been very different. Normally we go south for the holidays. Both sets of grandparents live down in south Texas but this year we stayed home. So instead of seeing both sides of the family we only saw one. I kind of miss not seeing the other side. I think that seeing both sides for one holiday is fixing to come to a halt. My grandparents are considering moving. I am not sure if where they are moving is going to be a good thing. It will be different next year. I am not sure if this is a good or bad thing. I hope everyone had a great Thanksgiving! I know I did!

Love,
Heather

AN AWESOME WEEK!

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I have had a great week! I think it was thanks to my awesome weekend! This weekend I went to a girls conference at ACU. It was AWESOME! It really made me think about a lot of things. I also realized why I am working at Albertsons. I wasn't really liking the fact that I worked there. I don't get along with one of my coworkers. This week I realized that the reason I work there is to work on my people skills. I have been working on them and I am getting pretty good at being able to go up to random people and just talk to them about anything. I am kind of enjoying it! This new incite has greatly improved my job skills and how much I like working there. I hope everyone is having a great week! God Bless!

Love,
Heather

WOW

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This week has been great weird and fun! This weekend I went to my last home game as a Sr. and we won our first district game! It hasn't been such a great season. Then Sat I did some soccer watching and went and hung out with the greatest youth minister! Then I got to go shopping! It was really neat because I was kind of sad that I didn't get to hang out with one of my friends and while I was shopping I ran into one of my old babysitters and it just made me think of how much working with kids and just loving them impacts their lives. I still remember her years later. It was really neat! Then Sunday I went to church and then I went with some other Sr.s to walk the neighbor hood and pray for people. We haven’t been having the best of luck so we were hoping that more people would be home and sure enough there were a lot of people that opened their doors. It was really neat. After that I went to a pumpkin carving contest with a church thing where middle schoolers and high schoolers hang out. It was really fun. Then I went to a murder party. I wasn't the murder! LOL It was a lot of fun too. On Monday I went to the annual costume carnival. It was really neat to see all of the little kids dressed up and having fun. When I got home my mom asked me when I wanted to go to Dallas to get a car that they had bought to replace our Yukon cuz gas is killing us. I got home around 5 from doing that. This weekend is Family retreat with church so I am looking forward to that. I hope everyone has a great week!

Love,
Heather