School

I have started school once again. This year was very weird. I am not sure how I feel about public School starting at the same time that college starts. It was a little weird. Like buying school supplies was INSANE. Not only did you have the college kids trying to buy stuff but you added all the parents and their children. It was a little crazy. I am however loving my classes.

I am finding out that I have very little to no time to do other things outside of class and work and sleep but I will get used to that and I think it is something that will be good for me. My goal for this semester was to try to focus on school and to get better grades. I have a really hard schedule this semester and to some I seem crazy but I think it will be fun.

I have started getting up at 5:30 in the morning to walk and then come back and go to school. Today I didn't get up and walk though. I was so tired from yesterday and I thought it would be nice to sleep in. It was plus I have shin splints. I hate shin splints. They hurt. Anyway I should go. I have go get to work. I hope you all have a wonderful day!
Love,
Heather

Things on my mind

I have been doing a lot of thinking recently. I think it is because readjusting to life after camp is really hard. Just tonight I have been thinking about my life and how I feel so close to God but yet so far away. I know that my relationship with him isn't where it should be right now. I want to get to know him better and become more like him. I feel like this past week I have lost sight of that. I think that part of that is because I haven't been feeling 100% but that is also an excuse. No matter what God should always come first in my life and I feel like this week he has been put on the back burner. I was reading tonight out of my latest book, Just Like Jesus by Max Lucado the teen addition, and I realized that I was putting God in the back of my life. This is something that I think I realized at camp but it is so much harder to actually try to change when you are surrounded by the world and everything it has to offer. I often wonder what would happen if I didn't have the internet, television, and a phone. Would life be easier? Would it leave more time for God? I think that sometimes we tend to put those things before him. This is something that I am struggling with right now and it is something that I am going to try to work on with this next week. I am going to give up an hour of sleep in the morning to read in his word and talk to him. I think that this will help me and my day will be a better day because I start it with him.

Something else I realized tonight is that I am shutting myself off from my friends. I was invited to go hang out with some of them tonight and I turned them down. I am not sure why. I should have gone because it would have been fun and then I wouldn't have been bored all night. I don't know why I do this but every once in awhile I catch myself shutting people out. It isn't good. I also have realized that I want a friend who is always there for me no matter what and who will help me be accountable to what I want to accomplish. I still haven't found that friend. That is my prayer for this year, that I find someone to build me up and hold me accountable to my goals.

Something else that I realized is that I need to be more open with God and tell him everything that I am feeling and this isn't happening well at least not right now. I am not talking to him like he is my best friend. I am also wondering if he is the person I am longing for to be my accountability partner. I am not sure what this year will bring but I am looking forward to it and I am looking forward to finding out more about myself and about my Savior. I can't wait!

CAMP

What can I say about camp?? I am not sure how to explain what I happened to me this summer. It was amazing. I learned a ton about who I was and who I am. I learned that I tend to put others before myself, which is something that I need to watch because it can become a problem. I also learned that I need to find someone to help keep me accountable to everything in my life. I need a friend that I can always count on and that I can go to whenever I need something.

Something else I learned is how a guy should treat a girl when they are dating. I think my standards which were already high just went up some more.

Something else that I have decided is that I want to branch out and switch churches. It is not because I am mad it is just something that I feel lead to do. It is something that I think will be hard because I know that I love my church right now but I feel like I am being called to leave. I am not sure where I am going to go but I know that where ever I go I can always come home. No matter what I know that my church family will always love me. I am sad that I am leaving some of the people but I feel like it will give me a chance to see how other churches work and what their ministries look like. I think it will be a great experience, one that I am looking forward too.

That is a brief description of what I learned at camp. I think I found out who I was and found some of my weaknesses. It was a great 5 weeks and an awesome way to end the summer. I hope everyone had a great summer!

Love,

Heather