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WOW is all I can say about tonight! It went from wonderful to me looking at my friend and going WHO ARE YOU? It was very weird!

Tonight was a great night. I went to the freedom church and helped 3 lil girls walk around and bless the church. It was AWESOME! They were so cute. It was a blast for me. Then I was outside and I was talking to some people and the beloved families that moved got brought up. I am going to be really honest with you. If I think about it I cry. I miss them so much. It is just really hard.

Then I went to my friends house and she was talking to me about what she has been doing and I was like WHO ARE YOU?? She hasn't done all the right things in the world in the first place but she was tring to change. Then tonight when I was sitting there and she was telling me how she loves haveing a house to herself and not having to be home at any certin time and being able to do whatever she wants is so much fun but what she is doing isn't right. It is hard to watch a friend go down a road that you know will end up bad and you get to pick up the peices AGAIN. Then on my way home I was thinking about all of this and this song came to mind.

Artist Lyrics: Casting Crowns
Song Lyrics: Here I Go Again
Album Lyrics:

Father, hear my prayer
I need the perfect words
Words that he will hear
And know they're straight from You
I don't know what to say
I only know it hurts
To see my only friend slowly fade away

So maybe this time I'll speak the words of life
With Your fire in my eyes
But that old familiar fear is tearing at my words
What am I so afraid of?

'Cause here I go again
Talkin' bout the rain
And mulling over things that won't live past today
And as I dance around the truth
Time is not his friend
This might be my last chance to tell him that
You love him
But here I go again, Here I go again

Lord, You love him so, You gave Your only Son
If he will just believe; he will never die
But how then will he know what he has never heard
Lord he has never seen mirrored in my life

Maybe this time I'll speak the words of life
With Your fire in my eyes
But that old familiar fear is tearing at my words
What am I so afraid of?

'Cause here I go again
Talkin' bout the rain
And mulling over things that won't live past today
And as I dance around the truth
Time is not his friend
This might be my last chance to tell him that
You love him
But here I go again, Here I go again

This might be my last chance to tell him that You love him
This might be my last chance to tell him that You love him
You love him, You love him
What Am I so afraid
What am I so afraid
What am I so afraid of?
How then will he know
What he has never heard

I love that song. Two good things came out of me going over there tonight. One I know what she is doing and will be praying for her and two she told me that one of the kids that goes to school with me and did drugs is now this big Christian and has changed so that is good. Well That is all for now! TTYL LYL GOD BLESS!

Love,
Heather